so goood to be home
sooooo soooooo goood to be in sydney.
soooooooooooooo sooooooooooooo sooooooooooooooo good to see mikey.

and hey my trip wasnt all that bad either. thanks to awesome friends and awesome food and awesome shopping and awesome relos.

as sad as it may seem... facebook is a big part of my life. i think for anyone in this generation to say otherwise would just be blatant lying. i mean... we create events on facebook, we find the latest goss on facebook, we chat to each other of facebook... and we see whose in a relationship or not on facebook.

so as CRAZY as it may seem. as SILLY as it may seem. as IDIOTIC and CHILDLIKE as it may seem. it drove me nuts knowing my boyfriend's status was single when i was away. and knowing i could do nothing about it because the stupid communist party of china are fuckwits who need to understand that all this control will one day cause a huge revolt where the people will bring them down. ANYWAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
so i was away for a month... my boyfriend's status was single. wasnt happy days for me. and knowing girls these days.. and how awesomely good looking my boyfriend is (well i think so anyway so THERE.. awesomely good looking sounds like a line from zoolander for some reason)
let me tell you how bad being insanely insecure for a whole month is.... well i cant... because fucking indescribable.
i think i spent hours trying to proxy into facebook. didnt work.
i think i constantly had bags under my eyes cuz i couldnt sleep well.
i think every single time mikey didnt call me for a day i would kinda mope around and act like someone died until i got the next phone call.

and now im back in sydney. mikey tells me how much he loves me. how much he missed me. how much he wants to be with me and im happy all over again. i love him just as much. i want to be with him just as much. i don't know how i would operate if i couldnt be with him. the moment i saw him was when i truly felt that i had come home.

then why... in God's name.. is my boyfriend's facebook status still single?