isnt it funny how its always during exams that i start to think about the craziest things?
i start to fill my brain with crazy thoughts which end up consuming both me and my time.

ive been 21 for a day now. it ain't so great. definitely overrated.
i dont feel wiser
i dont feel more mature
i dont feel like i can achieve more

feel pretty alone though. oh wait... they didnt write that on the "this-is-how-you're-supposed-to-feel-after-21" handbook. fuck you.

i got a diamond necklace from my mum for my birthday. 32 clusters of little diamonds in a chanel shape on a white gold chain. haha not really my style ( i know beggers cant be choosers) ... BUT at least she knows i like white gold better than yellow gold.
i got the funniest sms from my dad
21Happy Birthday to Pecy Dady

those are the exact words. hahahahaha he's so funny its like he added the "To Pecy" after it just to make sure i definitely got it. i hope he comes back with lotsa goodies for me from hk and china. goodies not as in clothes etc. i buy that stuff when i go back myself... but stuff from the awesome hotels he stays in and the first class flight free stuff. THEY ARE AWESOME

its 1:34 on my laptop. i woke up at 6:50 today. i need to wake up at 6:30 tomorrow. goodnight world

watch out for a 21y/o me :)

*you better keep up or i'm going to have to leave you behind

i wish our brains were VHS tapes. the old school kind where to reuse all you have to do is tape over. then you can erase the old and keep the new. i wish my brain was like that. so when it comes to exams i can just erase everything that is UNNECESSARY IN MY HEAD to leave ample amounts of room for what i need to ace my exams.

i laugh at my own stupidity sometimes. i laugh at how vulnerable and gullible and naive i am sometimes.

i wish i could be the type of girl who could pick up and put down as easy as 1, 2, 3. sleep with someone and not have feelings for them.

but im not that type of girl. i dont think i could ever be that type of girl. because im in it for the long run.

i love being with mikey. we're so different in ways that i think makes it work. i dont try to understand all his urban/ hip hop kinda stuff so when he tells me about it im genuinely interested. and he doesnt really know what i study. haha so when i tell him... well i dont think anyone can be genuinely interested in what i study... so he gets let off.
he makes me laugh. he takes care of me even though he always calls me a kid (pshhhhh).

and i think its because we're so different that makes me love being with him more. thats why it was, is and will be hard to let go when (if) that time comes.

god i hate having emotions.