i've never been much of a romantic. i dont think a knight in armour is going to come rescue me one day. i dont believe in the materialism of relationships.
i guess i try to be more realistic about relationships. i love you, you love me. alright we're good to go. i dont need you to buy me this and that to prove how much i mean to you. i dont need endless phone calls every day with you. i dont need cute little plushie toys or matching hats or matching shirts.
want i do need is more substantive things. i need memories. i need actions. funnily enough i need words. i need a smile. i need a willingness to want to spend time with me. i need you to be there when i need you the most. i need support, understanding and care.
i need to be made feel special. different from anyone you've ever met and anyone you ever will meet. i need to be spoken to differently and handled differently and understood differently.
NOW THATS HOW YOU TREAT A GIRL.
Friday, May 28, 2010
Monday, May 17, 2010
it has been two months and 1 day since ive touched this space.
someone random actually very very random asked me how my blog was going and i thought well... since im here trying to read the roll critique and i'm seriously not absorbing anything about risk free rates and ex-post mean-variance efficient stufff i might as well blog.
there seems a lot that i want to write but i cant put fingers to keyboard atm.
am i happy? yes and no.
am i satisfied? yes and no.
am i looking for more? yes and no.
am i 100%? yes and no.
HAHA. i dont think that wouldve helped anyone to figure out how life is going atm. it barely helps me to be honest.
im happy. i have awesome friends. i have my boyfriend. i am doing a degree at uni that i know will get me places. but now im not so sure if i wanna be going the place where my degree is going to take me. i still want to be a corporate powerhouse but i dont think im going about it the right way. if at this very stage.. im not passionate about all this financial stuff that im learning about... then how will i ever become fascinated by it? i really do think im more of a hands-on, communicating with people type of person and i dont think i get to use that attribute to its full potential if i ended up in a financial institution.
well i guess i could always become a lawyer. yay... the joys of a double degree.....
im satisfied. but i dont think satisfcation is a very high threshold to meet. i want to be more than satisfied with life. i want to enjoy life and seize it by its front horns and steer it so i know that i will be living each day to its fullest. i dont think im doing that at the moment. emotionally and mentally i'm not there yet. i have a few reasons to why in my head but those are my dark little secrets that even you wont get to know about.
am i looking for more? of course i am. im constantly looking to newer, better things. but i feel like im stuck in a rutt where ive been shielded off from these newer, better things. no fair man. share them around for gods sake!
am i 100% sure? no im not. and i really want to be. i wish i was. but im not. little things. always the little things.
ive always been told that words dont hurt you. but, my goodness, words said to you from certain people can see you gasping for breath. words can hurt so much. ive learnt that the hard way. so what happens when you meet a girl like me who cant keep any words inside of her? who always needs to say whats on her mind?
you get trouble. big fat. stinking. gross. TROUBLE
someone random actually very very random asked me how my blog was going and i thought well... since im here trying to read the roll critique and i'm seriously not absorbing anything about risk free rates and ex-post mean-variance efficient stufff i might as well blog.
there seems a lot that i want to write but i cant put fingers to keyboard atm.
am i happy? yes and no.
am i satisfied? yes and no.
am i looking for more? yes and no.
am i 100%? yes and no.
HAHA. i dont think that wouldve helped anyone to figure out how life is going atm. it barely helps me to be honest.
im happy. i have awesome friends. i have my boyfriend. i am doing a degree at uni that i know will get me places. but now im not so sure if i wanna be going the place where my degree is going to take me. i still want to be a corporate powerhouse but i dont think im going about it the right way. if at this very stage.. im not passionate about all this financial stuff that im learning about... then how will i ever become fascinated by it? i really do think im more of a hands-on, communicating with people type of person and i dont think i get to use that attribute to its full potential if i ended up in a financial institution.
well i guess i could always become a lawyer. yay... the joys of a double degree.....
im satisfied. but i dont think satisfcation is a very high threshold to meet. i want to be more than satisfied with life. i want to enjoy life and seize it by its front horns and steer it so i know that i will be living each day to its fullest. i dont think im doing that at the moment. emotionally and mentally i'm not there yet. i have a few reasons to why in my head but those are my dark little secrets that even you wont get to know about.
am i looking for more? of course i am. im constantly looking to newer, better things. but i feel like im stuck in a rutt where ive been shielded off from these newer, better things. no fair man. share them around for gods sake!
am i 100% sure? no im not. and i really want to be. i wish i was. but im not. little things. always the little things.
ive always been told that words dont hurt you. but, my goodness, words said to you from certain people can see you gasping for breath. words can hurt so much. ive learnt that the hard way. so what happens when you meet a girl like me who cant keep any words inside of her? who always needs to say whats on her mind?
you get trouble. big fat. stinking. gross. TROUBLE