been two weeks since uni's started. im quite enjoying the semester so far. not behind on my law readings at all :) and damn they take a lot of time to do.. 90 pages a week is not what i call fun. but international law seems and is really interesting. like i said before i would have loved to do international studies as my other degree but due to unforeseen circumstances ie. my parents i couldnt do it. working at the UN or some other NGO was my ultimate dream but yeahhhhhh oh well i guess i could always do a masters in international studies

iv e been getting pretty excited about my 21st :) never had a really really big birthday party except when i was young and had a maccas party haha they were the bomb. anywayyyy sooo yeahh wanting to invite over 200 guests. friends i havent seen in a while, friends from high school friends ive lost contact with, my bestest friends and mikey's best friends. SUPER EXCITED! and plus ive decided on a 'your favourite cartoon character when you were young' hehe im expecting everyone to dress up... no dress up no entry THATS THE RULE PEOPLE

oh btw... i love my uni friends. to bits. especially caleb and mickey haha they make me laugh and keep me sane. this semester i have most of my classes with them and im so glad. makes every uni day fun filled. also atm i get to see mikey everyday before and after uni. which also makes my day. i'm gonna be so sad when he has to go to parra everyday to work :( wont get to see him as much which is going to be extremely hard since for the past 4 months ive seen him close to every single day. couldnt imagine not being able to.

i guess the past few months has made me see that life is hard no matter what. no matter if you're already working or still studying. nothing in life is free and all you can do is have ambition and work hard to reach that end goal. being successful isnt a sprint. its a marathon. your whole life is a marathon race and only when you can run the whole 50km and reach the end will it be satisfying. no doubt there will be obstacles along the way. but whats life without its ups and downs? its the downs that show our potential and our perseverance. im still at uni. still have 2.5 years left to go. and right now i still dont have a clue what my life will be like after that. what kind of job ill be able to get after. where ill be living. if i still want to go overseas to do a masters. whether i want to live in asia for a while and work. its sad to say that i dont even have a life goal at the moment. sure.. make money, find a husband, have a family, support my parents. but they arent goals.

so im a bit lost at the moment. i need some perspective i guess.

relationship wise. im so glad i have mikey. i love him so much. and i guess after all we've been through and the fact that we're still together means that i do have something real here. ive never had that 'real' factor in the past. and trust me... its gonna take a lot for me to let it go. what does scare me is other people getting in the way and for some reason i have a premonition that that might be what would break us up in the end. but not if i can help it :)

ok. well.. knowing me. ill see you next month blog

much love

once again... its been a month since i've even thought about writing here again. funny how i decide to start writing something when i have readings already piling up...

so holidays are officially over. and by the end of it i was actually quite excited to get back into it. start all my readings you know... use my brain a bit. more holidays are looking pretty good now with the 90 pages of readings for law (25 more to go :) WOOT WOOT)

anyway spent most of my holidays with mikey which was good. since once uni completely kicks in for me and he opens his parra store we wont have too much time together which will be hard. i'm so used to seeing him everyday now its ridiculous...

freaks me out that i'm already a third year student. commerce kids are graduating this year... scary scary scary. but im excited to get employed... somewhere :( haha so that I can start living the lifestyle i want.

anyway
its 12
i need to finish reading this chapter for investments. find my regression stuff for loo. print out my tute stuff for tmr and then sleep... waking up at 7 to drive to mikey's before uni :)