when you put your trust into someone, what do you think you'll get out of it?

well, let me tell you. you get nothing.

you get fleeting happiness. you get promises that never come true. you get tears and anger and frustration and disappointment.

right now. im not angry. im not crying. im not frustrated and im not disappointed.

im just empty and hollow and helpless.

i dont know what to do anymore.

look at me and you'll see what youve thrown away and maybe you'll feel as hollow as me.



putting down the barriers never worked for me. well i put them down this time. and ... once again... it still didnt work for me.

so im done with putting down the barriers. im done with trusting people. im done with trying so hard to look for the good in people.

this hopefully means im done getting hurt. im done wasting emotions on people. im done relying on anyone else but myself.

the most important person in my world is me. and if i cant love myself enough to walk away and if i cant tell myself that i dont deserve to be treated that way and if i cant be strong enough to fight for my own feelings then everything ive ever believed in and preached about relationships will fly out the window. and im not about to let that happen.

so. go back to your world. the girls you know. the girls you want.

and then think about me. then tell me how you feel.