ive had an awesome weekend!
going out with the girls was mega mega fun. flow was great although must remember next time to go with a few more girls the guy-to-girl ratio is absolutely ridiculous.
arthouse was good too! even though the venue is a bit 'school-hallish' its still quite big and fits quite a lot of people. being tipsy helped a bit too haha
then just chillin gout on sunday and monday. i watched ps i love again. surprisingly this time i wasnt bawlign my eyes out. maybe cuz mikey was there saying stuff like 'i hate this shit'.. yeah i think thats why.
PPPSSSHHHH

ive got nothing to rant about. weird isnt it? usually i have so much to whine and bitch and complain about. but not this time. which strangely enough is making me feel a LITTLE BIT EMPTY. how unhealthy is that?

saw preggars this morning. still the same uncomfortable gut feeling. so like a chicken i ran off and made james shield me. haha im pathetic. NEXT TIME IM GONNA NOT MOVE AND JUST STAND THERE AND SMILE AND IF SHE GIVES ME ATTITUDE.. then ill run off and hide behind james again. hahahahhahaha. if you're still madly in love with the guy then thats between you and him. its the two of you have to sort it out. and if in the end he finds out that he is still in love with you then good. i wish you both well. im not gonna say im gonna be happy if he's still in love with you im just saying thats the way life is. we werent meant to be and you guys were. and i can now honestly say that i care enough to let him be happy with whoever he want to be happy with. because no matter what i still want to be apart of his life. even if we are just mad friends.

BUT if he doesnt love you then let go and let him be happy and you should try to find someone else that will make you happy. because life isnt about not letting go of the past. its about looking forward to the future and what amazing people and amazing experiences you'll find along the way. theres no point in dwelling about what you woulda, coulda, shoulda have done. but think about what you CAN and WILL do.

like ive said before. regret can be one of the worst words to say. ever. so im cutting that outta my vocabulary RIGHT NOW.

ok need to do more research on CREDIT SPREADS. :):):) funfun