my heart's breaking in two.
you were such a vital part of my life and now you're going and i cant even say goodbye.

all those times when i was a baby and you changed my diapers, put up with my screaming, my stealing eggs and lollies. i might never get to thank you for it.
all those times when i went back and could have just stayed with you a home and watched tv togeher, play cards together... but i just end up going out shopping, getting my hair done etc. etc.

you're 10,000 kilometres away but i can see you lying there and its breaking my heart.
i can barely see through my eyes.
when you get to that stage when you're just sitting here and you can feel tears rolling down your eyes... you know nothing anyone can say will make it any better.

i need.... a hug. i need someone just to squeeze me so tight that they squeeze all the water out of me so i dont have to cry anymore.