exam week has officially started
and i have officially already screwed them. starting with my first exam.

i seriously wanna just go muffle myself in my sleep cuz life at the moment.... just fucking sucks like shit.
sucks sucks sucks sucks.
the only thing that makes me happy right now is looking at www.lookbook.nu
some funky funky people on that site.

maybe its cuz im about to get a year older and im getting the blues. you know.. getting older... no direction in life as of yet... still poor as a mother... still living with my parents.
i mean...WHAT AM I DOING?
yeah i know im doing uni... and hows that going? OH NOT SO GREAT THANKS
i wish i could just start work now. buy myself an apartment. buy myself a dog. go home at night... say hi to chloe (the dog...) give her some food... chuck in a microwavable dinner. turn on the tv and zonk out with a cup of wine. then come friday night meeting friends for afterwork drinks and having dinner at some scrumptous restaurant that serves amazing cocktails.
saturday would be spent waking up late... cleaning the house... going to the gym. and then partying at night
sunday would be an all day sleepathon.
chuck in the boyfriend here and there who hopefully i would be living with and ill yell at him for chucking socks everywhere.. ild yell at him for not putting down the toliet lid. waking up together and having awesome HUGE YUM cafe breakies with chloe sitting next to us. him snoring when im trying to sleep.. me yelling at him for no reason cuz im pmsing or cuz work is stressful then him attempting to cook to make me feel better.

OK SERIOUSLY? WHY IS MY LIFE NOT LIKE THAT?
why am i a 20 y/o girl all alone on monday night without her dog, without her own apartment, without her boyfriend, without her job ........ but just with finance notes?