its not meant to be this hard.

at least i dont think it is.

i dont think im being needy or expecting too much.

i let you live the way you wanna live even though i dont think much of it. i dont nag you about stuff anymore. i definitely dont nag you in front of your friends.

but how hard is it to include me in your life? to sms me now and then just to say hi babe going home now or just finished work or good morning have a good day at uni. sms not because you have something to really say to me but just to sms me just so that i know you're there.
i KNOW you're not a phone person but i still dont think im asking for too much...

so now i have my doubts as to how much you want me in your life. it seems as if im the one making the effort whenever im free from studying to go and see you. even if its just for a few minutes at the shop.

but when im with you its a totally different story. what you did for me last weekend. when im with you and you you dont want me to leave and you say you miss me. thats how i wanna feel... every day.

youve said you dont wanna distract me while im studying. i really dont think thats a valid enough excuse. im happy you want me to do well at uni. but i dont know when you say you dont wanna contact me whether its really because you have my best interests at heart or whether you really cant be stuffed.

so is it me?
or is it you?
or is it the both of us?