im not something that will appear in your life when you want me to appear. im not something that you pick up when you're bored and put back down when you have something else to do.

i DESERVE better than that.

and i CAN get better than that

so tell me why i feel this way? tell me why i feel this way but i dont do anything about it?

i want so badly for you to say that im not just your little play thing. sometimes i actually believe you think me more than that. but other times my confidence on us comes crashing down.

maybe we're still playing games? maybe if i wanna spend time with you i should just say, "hey lets spend more time together". and maybe if you want to spend time with me you should tell me "hey dog your friends i wanna spend time with you"

whatever this is i feel like a frequeny wave. my emotions when im with you peak and then when i dont hear from you for like a gazillion years im in a trough.
ive always been against relationships that are turbulent like that. we're all still young why but yourself through all that up and down?

im confused
help me figure it out?