I DO NOT HAVE A SMOKERS FACE
omggggggossshhhhh waaaayyyyyyy tooooo mannnyyyy cooommmmeeennntttsssss about how pale i am these days! WAY TOO MANY

i had a really nice talk with jess today and it kinda made me realise how independent i want to be. and how much im basing my life on just fun and study. study which is a commitment that i have to make and fun... well... because im young.
but once i graduate its not gonna be just fun and work. its gonna be... i derno... LIFE.
a husband, kids, a mortgage, crazy in-laws and all that jazz
it made me laugh a bit when jess told me today that i dont seem like the type to settle down. haha its amazing how many people give me that comment. and i guess its true i mean how are people going to think that im the type that wants to have a long term relationship or wants to get married early when every guy i meet treats me like one of his boys? haha one of his mates that is just as masculine, IF NOT EVEN MORE SO. haha hence this is why i have more boy friends than girl friends i guess.
but thats not true i dont think. i do wanna settle down and have that consistency in my life. just its becuase my attention span is like that of a 5 y/o with certain things doesnt mean its gonna be like that for EVERYTHING aspect of my life.
i like routine even though it seems like i dont.
i like stability even though it seems like i dont
i like having not a million friends, but just a few close tight real friends
i like to be the object of one guy's affection even though it seems like i want everyones.


i pawn everyone in the penis game:)