I MISS MY HAIR
the hair i had at the end of last year.
ok so i dont miss the colour. it was a bit too orange back then. the colour now is nice. but i fucking miss the length and how it was nice and smooth
now.. my hair feels like barbie hair.. and not just normal barbie hair... but fucking the barbie hair that i chop off ugliest barbie to make her into my make believe "ken"
see how fucked up stereotyping is? it draws you into a blackhole and you're stuck until you can claw your way back out... you start thinking people who dont go to uni arent worthy, you start to think that people who look "skanky" or "sleazy" or whatever are actually skanky and sleazy.
then you meet them and you realise, fuck how wrong was i?
SEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE???
hahahaah i win. i win. i win.
im the resident "girl filler" as davo kindly put it. im the girl all the guys come to when they have problems ie. girl problems. im like fucking resident girl-psychoanalyst or somethng just cuz i am a girl. ok i guess thats a good excuse... and i guess i should be glad when my guy friends ask me to help them out. makes me feel like one of the boys.
HAHAHAHA.
wow im one of the boys:)
HECTIKKK BRAH
i wore thongs today....and my feet were sooo chat.. then we had to walk to redfern with a small umbrella and 3 people. chat chat chat.
i hate rainy weather. I HATE RAINY WEATHER but this whole week is rainy.
have i ever told you guys how hot macedonian guys are? AHAH
i kid
i kid
xpeaceout
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Monday, March 30, 2009
dont you hate it when people treat you like an idiot?
here you are, neon lights blazing and all, that you're trying your best.. that you're slowly trying to grasp the idea of a concept and people seem to just think they're too superior to help you out...
you werent always as smart as you think you are.. you were once a dumbshit baby too.. pooping everywhere, dribbling food down your shirt... dont be such a cocky bastard pls.
TIMOMATIC left sytycd. omgggggggggoshhh im so distraught. that guy fucking pushes all my buttons. and his last dance was HECCCTTTIIICCCCCCCCCC.
if an asian and an african-america had babies. do you reckon they'll be pretty?
or would they jsut get the small asian eyes and the fat nose? gawd.. im picturing that in my head and it dont look too pretty atm...
i want my kid to be pretty.
as superficial as this sounds.. and i might very much get flamed for this... it doesnt hurt to be good looking in life. things do come to you easier. this is why i do not have a problem with using your God given assets to their fullest potential.
i dont knwo what that was about but CONCLUSION IS THAT.. i want my kid to be good looking.
i want a boy who will play basketball, soccer, piano, drums and still be smart
i want a girl who will be a ballerina, learn piano, learn how to sing and still be smart
and if i cnat get that... ill be popping out as many as i can to get it..
HAHAH
I KID
I KID
(mind the pun)
dudeeeeee having children is like.. not even a thought in my mind right now.. hahaha i cant even process next year in my brain. i cant even process next week! oh except for that fucking finc test.
i feel sorry for the micro kids.. 40% test! and the day after finc. EKKKKK
i just had a punnet of strawberries, a plum, a nectarine, a bunch of grapes and an apple.. all after i had dinner... yay for autumn and for fruit!
"cold as fire baby... hot as ice.. if you've never been to heaven this is twice as nice"
xmuchlovekiddos
here you are, neon lights blazing and all, that you're trying your best.. that you're slowly trying to grasp the idea of a concept and people seem to just think they're too superior to help you out...
you werent always as smart as you think you are.. you were once a dumbshit baby too.. pooping everywhere, dribbling food down your shirt... dont be such a cocky bastard pls.
TIMOMATIC left sytycd. omgggggggggoshhh im so distraught. that guy fucking pushes all my buttons. and his last dance was HECCCTTTIIICCCCCCCCCC.
if an asian and an african-america had babies. do you reckon they'll be pretty?
or would they jsut get the small asian eyes and the fat nose? gawd.. im picturing that in my head and it dont look too pretty atm...
i want my kid to be pretty.
as superficial as this sounds.. and i might very much get flamed for this... it doesnt hurt to be good looking in life. things do come to you easier. this is why i do not have a problem with using your God given assets to their fullest potential.
i dont knwo what that was about but CONCLUSION IS THAT.. i want my kid to be good looking.
i want a boy who will play basketball, soccer, piano, drums and still be smart
i want a girl who will be a ballerina, learn piano, learn how to sing and still be smart
and if i cnat get that... ill be popping out as many as i can to get it..
HAHAH
I KID
I KID
(mind the pun)
dudeeeeee having children is like.. not even a thought in my mind right now.. hahaha i cant even process next year in my brain. i cant even process next week! oh except for that fucking finc test.
i feel sorry for the micro kids.. 40% test! and the day after finc. EKKKKK
i just had a punnet of strawberries, a plum, a nectarine, a bunch of grapes and an apple.. all after i had dinner... yay for autumn and for fruit!
"cold as fire baby... hot as ice.. if you've never been to heaven this is twice as nice"
xmuchlovekiddos
Sunday, March 29, 2009
its nearly 12 am
i can hear my neighbours dog whining and its breaking my heart. the fact that i can hear if over bachelor girl means something must be wrong with the poor beast.
mum says its probably lonely... but my neighbours have 3 kids... one in high school, one my age and another older one.. how can a dog be lonely in a family like that?
it keeps whining....................................
anyway im blogging cuz ive realised that people actually read this piece of shit and the head count is uno - me.
i spent this weekend not doing anything but going on ebay and chictopia. which is a fucking waste of time and ebay a waste of money.
but i love the thrill of ebay
see my strategy (sshhh) is to always bid 5 mins before the bidding closes cuz by then the highest bidder gets complacent and like wont probably check as much to see if they're still the highest bidder and then like a stealthy cat in the night you slip underneath them and get that muthafucking hot dress or wahtever...
WORKS BRO
most of the time... unless you meet someone that i met todya... stole the dress from me with 2 more seconds of bidding... piece of ............................................
it was sucha hot dress too :(
anywayyyyy enough of that
how cruel are humans? we eat everything.
ok rephrase.. chinese people eat everything...
i had chicken feet on thursday, chicken neck on friday and duck tongue today. DUCK TONGUE.. i knowww sounds festy... it is festy to look at... but pretty good to eat. 50 bux a kilo hhahaha i guess they're quite rare commodities i mean one duck only has one tongue...
but its so yummy. luckly i dont like our feathered friends.
when you see someone on the street that you thought you had forgotten about and have a major, exaggerated reaction. what does that mean? does it mean that.. inside you havent completely let them go? or is it just such a strong, extreme hate towards that person you cant help but violently express your opinion even if you overtly swear like a complete potty mouth?
well im obviously leaning towards the 2nd opinion because i guess im trying to tell myself that i no longer give a shit about that person. PATHETIC MUCH?
throughout this whole weekend me and my cousin have devoured a whole cereal back of light and tasty apricot cereal.. fucking addictive i swear!!
its now 12:30. i just had some family friends come over. one of them, shes a really sweet lady and i really like her.. shes so generous.. shes a skeleton now. shes lost so much weight since last time ive seen her and it looks as if shes aged 10 years... mum says she isnt eating cuz she thinks shes fat... the last time i saw her which was like last year before i went overseas.. she looked so much more healthier.
i bet her husband told her she looked fat.
fucking men and their stupid misconceptions about weight and body image. no wonder girls are going through anorexia. claps for all you guys out there who love to tell girls how flabby they are or whatever... maybe you should think before you open your big fat mouths next time?
ok well i think thats enough of what i wanna say for tonight.
ps. i actually realy like jess mauboy's new song... been waiting. such a catchy tune. and shes lost quite a lot of weight...
pps. theres another song which is fucking hilarious called dont trust me by.. this weird band that i dont know how to write their band name. its two guys.. and the video clip is just them being idiots with hot girls.
pps. you know what song gets on my nerves? ja hoi by the pussycat dolls and the curry guy. SPARE ME... today whenever i turned on channelv that song was playing.. GAWD
ppps. i dont get britney's new song "seeking amy" or whatever? waht does it mean? the mtv makes it look as if shes livng a double life where shes teh perfect girl in front of the cameras but inside shes crazy/slutty/bondage-obssessed. so is amy her alterego? confused brah!
x peaceout
cuz im gay like that.. deal with it:)Friday, March 27, 2009
tired as hell again.
i woke up 10 mins before my bus to work.
and i saw my friend david on the bus back from work. i met him when we worked at woolies together. and he's sucha sweetheart. such a nice guy. makes me miss woolies a bit.
he told me the guys who i had heaps of fun with (sam, lloyd, mark, bree) had all left. and now theyve got a new manager and everything.
he still works in seafood once a week and he says it suckssssssss.
he's going to uni now after a year at a film school in redfern. proves that education will always be open to you if you choose to pursue it.
anyway im about to go and strip my poor fingernails of my black nail polish. think im gonna let my nails breathe for a week or two before i start painting them again
my parents talked about a family trip during easter midsem break. :(
where is there to go in the middle of april?
leave you with a piccy that i took when i went back to china. i did a photoshoot thingy and it was heaps of fun! me and my 2 cousins spent the whole day at the studio putting on makeup and then getting shot. most of them are a little explicit so ill put up 1. i look like a .... i derno.. i think i look like a kid
anyway
peaceout x
i woke up 10 mins before my bus to work.
and i saw my friend david on the bus back from work. i met him when we worked at woolies together. and he's sucha sweetheart. such a nice guy. makes me miss woolies a bit.
he told me the guys who i had heaps of fun with (sam, lloyd, mark, bree) had all left. and now theyve got a new manager and everything.
he still works in seafood once a week and he says it suckssssssss.
he's going to uni now after a year at a film school in redfern. proves that education will always be open to you if you choose to pursue it.
anyway im about to go and strip my poor fingernails of my black nail polish. think im gonna let my nails breathe for a week or two before i start painting them again
my parents talked about a family trip during easter midsem break. :(
where is there to go in the middle of april?
leave you with a piccy that i took when i went back to china. i did a photoshoot thingy and it was heaps of fun! me and my 2 cousins spent the whole day at the studio putting on makeup and then getting shot. most of them are a little explicit so ill put up 1. i look like a .... i derno.. i think i look like a kid
anyway
peaceout x
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
im so scared
im like shaking at the moment
tomorrow cannot come quick enough. i wish i could get this over and done with. itll be like a weight off my shoulders.. like BIG TIME
mozzie bites: 11
yeah bitches.. ive got 11.
feels like the chicken pox again :(
lovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelove
im like shaking at the moment
tomorrow cannot come quick enough. i wish i could get this over and done with. itll be like a weight off my shoulders.. like BIG TIME
mozzie bites: 11
yeah bitches.. ive got 11.
feels like the chicken pox again :(
lovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelovelove
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
im sick of this situation.
so heres my ultimatum
heres your chance
take it or leave it
so heres my ultimatum
heres your chance
take it or leave it
if being wise means going through this much pain.. i fucking dont care if im a dumbshit.
yeah... my wisdom teeth have decided to greet me. and omgggg i am in sooo much pain. i cannot chew with the right side of my mouth due to the fact that my gum at the back of my mouth will just holler in protest. PAINFUL PAINFUL.
i will not resort to painkillers. mum offered me panadol and neurofen. no way am i taking drugs to make this more bearable. im gonna take it as a man. (and yes i know panadol and neurofen arent really drugs... CALM DOWN)
also since when did mossies start popping up around in autumn? ive become a feeding ground for mosquitos. i have... 7 mosquito bites on me. SEVEN in one day... reminds me of thailand where i had like 20 on my legs. but luckily this time.. i have 3 on my face! isnt that just lovely? it looks like im breaking out in pimples... SSSSSWWWWEEEETTTTTTT
the most itchiest one and the hardest one to scratch is actually the one on my pinky. damnnnnnnnn its sooooooooo ITCHYYYY
i hate mosquitos... OMG
that just reminded me
i couldnt sleep yesterday night cuz i thought i heard mosquitos in my room! THATS PROBABLY WHERE I GOT MY BITES FROM AYE?
i hate it when you're trying to sleep and you hear that bzzzzz sound. makes me soooooo paranoid but i dont wanna sleep under the covers either cuz i cant breathe. hahaha
urgh:(
on a brighter note.. i had hurstville chicken roll for dinner tonight. and i must say they are still quite the bomb.
the weather is BEAUTIFUL. excpet in the mornings when i walk outside at 7:20 on the dot and its freeezzzinngggg. and my car is all fogged up and i cant see anything so i have to put on the airconditioning and even though ive got it on the window settings it still makes my car like 5 degrees. so i sit there for like half an hour, yes it takes me that long to get to the station in the morning cuz of traffic and my parking techniques (must leave adequate time to park), shivering my knickers off. totally dreadful!
massive readings to do again this week
xx
yeah... my wisdom teeth have decided to greet me. and omgggg i am in sooo much pain. i cannot chew with the right side of my mouth due to the fact that my gum at the back of my mouth will just holler in protest. PAINFUL PAINFUL.
i will not resort to painkillers. mum offered me panadol and neurofen. no way am i taking drugs to make this more bearable. im gonna take it as a man. (and yes i know panadol and neurofen arent really drugs... CALM DOWN)
also since when did mossies start popping up around in autumn? ive become a feeding ground for mosquitos. i have... 7 mosquito bites on me. SEVEN in one day... reminds me of thailand where i had like 20 on my legs. but luckily this time.. i have 3 on my face! isnt that just lovely? it looks like im breaking out in pimples... SSSSSWWWWEEEETTTTTTT
the most itchiest one and the hardest one to scratch is actually the one on my pinky. damnnnnnnnn its sooooooooo ITCHYYYY
i hate mosquitos... OMG
that just reminded me
i couldnt sleep yesterday night cuz i thought i heard mosquitos in my room! THATS PROBABLY WHERE I GOT MY BITES FROM AYE?
i hate it when you're trying to sleep and you hear that bzzzzz sound. makes me soooooo paranoid but i dont wanna sleep under the covers either cuz i cant breathe. hahaha
urgh:(
on a brighter note.. i had hurstville chicken roll for dinner tonight. and i must say they are still quite the bomb.
the weather is BEAUTIFUL. excpet in the mornings when i walk outside at 7:20 on the dot and its freeezzzinngggg. and my car is all fogged up and i cant see anything so i have to put on the airconditioning and even though ive got it on the window settings it still makes my car like 5 degrees. so i sit there for like half an hour, yes it takes me that long to get to the station in the morning cuz of traffic and my parking techniques (must leave adequate time to park), shivering my knickers off. totally dreadful!
massive readings to do again this week
xx
Saturday, March 21, 2009
i am so so so so tired
i feel as if i could sleep forever but obviously im not sleeping and im trying to study finance for which i have a mid-sem in 10 days. even though it is multiple choice questions my head still spins when i hear present vale, future value, coupon rates, face value and the sort
i need to take more photos of my life. i used to remember when my mum used to bring a camera everywhere we went. and whenever she got it out me and my dad would groan because we knew we would be spending the next 15 mins faking a smile or posing with a ridiculous backdrop behind us.
my mum used to always tell me you'll never get the chance to be at this very spot at the same age. so why not cherish the moment and have something to remember it by?
i used to think my mum was a vaino. haha
i think its in the genes but because im a vaino too:)
anyway yes back to the photo thing. yeah i think im gonna take my camera around with me more often and just take snapshots of everyday life. my friends, my uni, my significant others.
although i dont think im vain enough to take pictures of what i wear everyday. i find that funny. ahah unless of course you have a fashion blog.
ie. wwww.karlascloset.blogspot.com (gold!)
lilly allen's the fear sums up about everything thats important in this life
I want to be rich and I want lots of money
I don't care about clever I don't care about funny
I want loads of clothes and fuckloads of diamonds
I heard people die while they are trying to find them
And I'll take my clothes off and it will be shameless
'Cuz everyone knows that's how you get famous.
I'll look at the sun and I'll in the mirror
I'm on the right track, yeah I'm on to a winner.
I don't know whats right and what's real anymore
And I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore
And When do you think it will all become clear?
'Cuz I'm being taking over by The Fear
Life's about film stars and less about mothers
It's all about fast cars and cussing each other
But it doesn't matter cause I'm packing plastic
And that's what makes my life so fucking fantastic
And I am a weapon of massive consumption
And it's not my fault it's how I'm programmed to function
I'll look at the sun and I'll look in the mirror
I'm on the right track, yeah we're on to a winner.
I don't know whats right and what's real anymore
And I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore
And when do you think it will all become clear?
'Cuz I'm being taking over by The Fear
Forget about guns and forget ammunition
'Cuz I'm killing them all on my own little mission
Now I'm not a saint but I'm not a sinner
Now everything's cool as long as I'm getting thinner
I don't know whats right and what's real anymore
And I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore
And When do you think it will all become clear?
'Cuz I'm being taking over by The Fear
i love spending time with you and just being in your prescence. you're kinda like that spice factor in my whole world of ordinariness. you tell me things that i would never have known before. you make me feel as if im so so special. if thats not enough then i dont know what is.
if these are my feelings in present value, then continously compounded for 8 years, what will the future value of my feelings be?
HAHAHAHAHAHA OK FUCK THAT WAS SO LAME
x peaceout
i feel as if i could sleep forever but obviously im not sleeping and im trying to study finance for which i have a mid-sem in 10 days. even though it is multiple choice questions my head still spins when i hear present vale, future value, coupon rates, face value and the sort
i need to take more photos of my life. i used to remember when my mum used to bring a camera everywhere we went. and whenever she got it out me and my dad would groan because we knew we would be spending the next 15 mins faking a smile or posing with a ridiculous backdrop behind us.
my mum used to always tell me you'll never get the chance to be at this very spot at the same age. so why not cherish the moment and have something to remember it by?
i used to think my mum was a vaino. haha
i think its in the genes but because im a vaino too:)
anyway yes back to the photo thing. yeah i think im gonna take my camera around with me more often and just take snapshots of everyday life. my friends, my uni, my significant others.
although i dont think im vain enough to take pictures of what i wear everyday. i find that funny. ahah unless of course you have a fashion blog.
ie. wwww.karlascloset.blogspot.com (gold!)
lilly allen's the fear sums up about everything thats important in this life
I want to be rich and I want lots of money
I don't care about clever I don't care about funny
I want loads of clothes and fuckloads of diamonds
I heard people die while they are trying to find them
And I'll take my clothes off and it will be shameless
'Cuz everyone knows that's how you get famous.
I'll look at the sun and I'll in the mirror
I'm on the right track, yeah I'm on to a winner.
I don't know whats right and what's real anymore
And I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore
And When do you think it will all become clear?
'Cuz I'm being taking over by The Fear
Life's about film stars and less about mothers
It's all about fast cars and cussing each other
But it doesn't matter cause I'm packing plastic
And that's what makes my life so fucking fantastic
And I am a weapon of massive consumption
And it's not my fault it's how I'm programmed to function
I'll look at the sun and I'll look in the mirror
I'm on the right track, yeah we're on to a winner.
I don't know whats right and what's real anymore
And I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore
And when do you think it will all become clear?
'Cuz I'm being taking over by The Fear
Forget about guns and forget ammunition
'Cuz I'm killing them all on my own little mission
Now I'm not a saint but I'm not a sinner
Now everything's cool as long as I'm getting thinner
I don't know whats right and what's real anymore
And I don't know how I'm meant to feel anymore
And When do you think it will all become clear?
'Cuz I'm being taking over by The Fear
i love spending time with you and just being in your prescence. you're kinda like that spice factor in my whole world of ordinariness. you tell me things that i would never have known before. you make me feel as if im so so special. if thats not enough then i dont know what is.
if these are my feelings in present value, then continously compounded for 8 years, what will the future value of my feelings be?
HAHAHAHAHAHA OK FUCK THAT WAS SO LAME
x peaceout
Friday, March 20, 2009
maybe we dont match as much as we think we do
maybe i tell you off too much
maybe we ARE too different
maybe i cant change you the way i want to
maybe you dont care about the nagging now but in the future you will
maybe you're just infatuated at this moment. but thats all it is. an infatuation
maybe i still cant let myself go because i'm too scared that this mended piece of shit i call a heart is gonna get smashed again
maybe i cant handle so many girls chasing after you knowing that you probably have much more things in common with them than you do with me
maybe im not as good as you think i am
maybe you dont even like me as much as you think you do
maybe im just a waste of your time
i could list 100 maybes.
i could only find 1 definite.
1 vs. 100
which one do you pick?
maybe i tell you off too much
maybe we ARE too different
maybe i cant change you the way i want to
maybe you dont care about the nagging now but in the future you will
maybe you're just infatuated at this moment. but thats all it is. an infatuation
maybe i still cant let myself go because i'm too scared that this mended piece of shit i call a heart is gonna get smashed again
maybe i cant handle so many girls chasing after you knowing that you probably have much more things in common with them than you do with me
maybe im not as good as you think i am
maybe you dont even like me as much as you think you do
maybe im just a waste of your time
i could list 100 maybes.
i could only find 1 definite.
1 vs. 100
which one do you pick?
Thursday, March 19, 2009
i think its become a weekly habit
i got another note today from someone
and this person threatened to call the police if i did it again!
BITCH
dude all i did was like park a little into the driveway.. like a TINSY MINISCULE bit of my car's ass was in the driveway. and she/he had a fucking panic attack.
anyway yeah man i suck at parking... ive realised that its just not a skill thats part of the "pecy system"
ALSO...
people need to stop coming up to me and asking me for cigarettes. seriosuly... just buy your own pack! blooddyyyy helll....... and like they ask oh can i buy one off you? AND OBVIOUSLY YOU'RE NOT GONNA SAY YEAH THATS 2BUX THANKS... and its always guys who freakin ask. i think its cuz they think im just a little girl who probably would just say yes.
damn. they're right... HAHA
but stilllllllllllllllllllllllll
i just ate vitaweats, doritos, soy crisps and grapes. EPIC. i thought i was gonna faint on the train home from lack of food. dont you love that feeling of when you're hungry and you eat anything and its so satisfying?
reminds me of the time at law camp where i was imagining a kebab and just "peeling away" the "foil wrapper" of my "kebab".. it was amazing and it made everyone else crave kebabs too haha
anyway im tired
i left my SID at uts... damn idiot
x
i got another note today from someone
and this person threatened to call the police if i did it again!
BITCH
dude all i did was like park a little into the driveway.. like a TINSY MINISCULE bit of my car's ass was in the driveway. and she/he had a fucking panic attack.
anyway yeah man i suck at parking... ive realised that its just not a skill thats part of the "pecy system"
ALSO...
people need to stop coming up to me and asking me for cigarettes. seriosuly... just buy your own pack! blooddyyyy helll....... and like they ask oh can i buy one off you? AND OBVIOUSLY YOU'RE NOT GONNA SAY YEAH THATS 2BUX THANKS... and its always guys who freakin ask. i think its cuz they think im just a little girl who probably would just say yes.
damn. they're right... HAHA
but stilllllllllllllllllllllllll
i just ate vitaweats, doritos, soy crisps and grapes. EPIC. i thought i was gonna faint on the train home from lack of food. dont you love that feeling of when you're hungry and you eat anything and its so satisfying?
reminds me of the time at law camp where i was imagining a kebab and just "peeling away" the "foil wrapper" of my "kebab".. it was amazing and it made everyone else crave kebabs too haha
anyway im tired
i left my SID at uts... damn idiot
x
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
omgosh
i am getting so fucking frustrated
this is once again... not worth my fucking emotions
because once again im caring too much
i wish i was a cold heartless bitch
well at least more of a cold heartless bitch than i am now
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i am getting so fucking frustrated
this is once again... not worth my fucking emotions
because once again im caring too much
i wish i was a cold heartless bitch
well at least more of a cold heartless bitch than i am now
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I DO NOT HAVE A SMOKERS FACE
omggggggossshhhhh waaaayyyyyyy tooooo mannnyyyy cooommmmeeennntttsssss about how pale i am these days! WAY TOO MANY
i had a really nice talk with jess today and it kinda made me realise how independent i want to be. and how much im basing my life on just fun and study. study which is a commitment that i have to make and fun... well... because im young.
but once i graduate its not gonna be just fun and work. its gonna be... i derno... LIFE.
a husband, kids, a mortgage, crazy in-laws and all that jazz
it made me laugh a bit when jess told me today that i dont seem like the type to settle down. haha its amazing how many people give me that comment. and i guess its true i mean how are people going to think that im the type that wants to have a long term relationship or wants to get married early when every guy i meet treats me like one of his boys? haha one of his mates that is just as masculine, IF NOT EVEN MORE SO. haha hence this is why i have more boy friends than girl friends i guess.
but thats not true i dont think. i do wanna settle down and have that consistency in my life. just its becuase my attention span is like that of a 5 y/o with certain things doesnt mean its gonna be like that for EVERYTHING aspect of my life.
i like routine even though it seems like i dont.
i like stability even though it seems like i dont
i like having not a million friends, but just a few close tight real friends
i like to be the object of one guy's affection even though it seems like i want everyones.
i pawn everyone in the penis game:)
omggggggossshhhhh waaaayyyyyyy tooooo mannnyyyy cooommmmeeennntttsssss about how pale i am these days! WAY TOO MANY
i had a really nice talk with jess today and it kinda made me realise how independent i want to be. and how much im basing my life on just fun and study. study which is a commitment that i have to make and fun... well... because im young.
but once i graduate its not gonna be just fun and work. its gonna be... i derno... LIFE.
a husband, kids, a mortgage, crazy in-laws and all that jazz
it made me laugh a bit when jess told me today that i dont seem like the type to settle down. haha its amazing how many people give me that comment. and i guess its true i mean how are people going to think that im the type that wants to have a long term relationship or wants to get married early when every guy i meet treats me like one of his boys? haha one of his mates that is just as masculine, IF NOT EVEN MORE SO. haha hence this is why i have more boy friends than girl friends i guess.
but thats not true i dont think. i do wanna settle down and have that consistency in my life. just its becuase my attention span is like that of a 5 y/o with certain things doesnt mean its gonna be like that for EVERYTHING aspect of my life.
i like routine even though it seems like i dont.
i like stability even though it seems like i dont
i like having not a million friends, but just a few close tight real friends
i like to be the object of one guy's affection even though it seems like i want everyones.
i pawn everyone in the penis game:)
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
im blogging everyday now!
wow what an achievement
anyway
today
my shoe broke
so today during my fiancne tut when i had to walk up to the board and present i walked up barefoot. see but i was also wearing my genie pants today.. so basically i was just oozing hoboness out of me.
walked all the way from electrical engineering to city road.. and mind you thats a fucking long walk... see i tried to make people think that i had shoes so i held my broken shoes in my hand so you know proving that yes i do like to wear shoes to uni
i was scared they wouldnt let me on the bus barefoot but i dont think anyone saw. BUT when i got to townhall i felt even more self conscious cuz it was peak hour time and so many people were rushing around.
so i nearly ran into nitrogen and asked for some tape. ahah i didnt wanna tape my shoes up inside the shop cuz that would look totally bad for them. so i sad outside on the steps and was taping my shoes when this guy walks past and he's full smiling at me... that pity poor litte girl with the broken shoe smile. you know thoese ones :P
haha when i got home
my mum chucked away my shoes. :( i was gonna fix them
BUT
NO FEAR
I JUST WENT AND RETRIEVED THEM.. i will fix them you watch and they will look brand new! trust me!
i went to the lumiere gym today with the boys.. i am soooo fucking unfit these days since i havnet properly gymmed since leaving for china. and plus going barefoot wasnt very optimal either
today me and peter had teh funniest conversation with this random guy sitting next to us at wentowrth. that guy had already like 5 jugs of beer and he was jsut going off. hahaha wouldnt shutup! and he was quite touchy feely. and he was old :(
had enough of old guys. urgh
muchlove!
wow what an achievement
anyway
today
my shoe broke
so today during my fiancne tut when i had to walk up to the board and present i walked up barefoot. see but i was also wearing my genie pants today.. so basically i was just oozing hoboness out of me.
walked all the way from electrical engineering to city road.. and mind you thats a fucking long walk... see i tried to make people think that i had shoes so i held my broken shoes in my hand so you know proving that yes i do like to wear shoes to uni
i was scared they wouldnt let me on the bus barefoot but i dont think anyone saw. BUT when i got to townhall i felt even more self conscious cuz it was peak hour time and so many people were rushing around.
so i nearly ran into nitrogen and asked for some tape. ahah i didnt wanna tape my shoes up inside the shop cuz that would look totally bad for them. so i sad outside on the steps and was taping my shoes when this guy walks past and he's full smiling at me... that pity poor litte girl with the broken shoe smile. you know thoese ones :P
haha when i got home
my mum chucked away my shoes. :( i was gonna fix them
BUT
NO FEAR
I JUST WENT AND RETRIEVED THEM.. i will fix them you watch and they will look brand new! trust me!
i went to the lumiere gym today with the boys.. i am soooo fucking unfit these days since i havnet properly gymmed since leaving for china. and plus going barefoot wasnt very optimal either
today me and peter had teh funniest conversation with this random guy sitting next to us at wentowrth. that guy had already like 5 jugs of beer and he was jsut going off. hahaha wouldnt shutup! and he was quite touchy feely. and he was old :(
had enough of old guys. urgh
muchlove!
Monday, March 16, 2009
i'm grateful that you're as understanding as you are.
maybe its not a good thing. maybe it means you dont give a shit about me.
OR
maybe you dont want me to stress out knowing that you are angry or pissed off.
its the little things that count. a smile, a kiss on the cheek, a hug.
or just seeing your face after a few days.
whoa slow down sister.
shields are very important. must keep your one intact.
cuz if you dont... then welll.....
history always repeats itself
x peaceout
maybe its not a good thing. maybe it means you dont give a shit about me.
OR
maybe you dont want me to stress out knowing that you are angry or pissed off.
its the little things that count. a smile, a kiss on the cheek, a hug.
or just seeing your face after a few days.
whoa slow down sister.
shields are very important. must keep your one intact.
cuz if you dont... then welll.....
history always repeats itself
x peaceout
Friday, March 13, 2009
oh yeah forgot to ask?
anyone wanna move out too?:)
anyone wanna move out too?:)
it hurts more when you talk behind my back then when you tell me straight to my face.
so next time.. instead of bustling around like little housewives with nothing to live for but gossip you guys should just come up to me and tell me what you think of me.
i like it much better that way.
no need to be pussy. just be a man.
oops did i say be a man? sorryyy forgot you guys are still only boys.
hence why i only go for older boys now.
do i sound like a bitch?
oh really? haha ok then. :)
i LOVEEEEEEEE Katy Perry. she is sooo friggin awesome. have you heard her others songs on her album?
Self-inflicted and Thinking of You are AWESOME tracks.
today my parents told me that i should move out for 3 months!! ahhaha just to get a taste of what its like. ive said this before i know a few times but then my mum was the only one that was kinda supportive... when i told my dad last year mum said i can move out just for the experience he told me that if i wanted to move out i wouldnt be allowed back.
HARSH RIGHT?!
anywayyyy so yeah today during dinner there was some argument about the amount of dinner i was eating and so my dad was like something about moving out and then ill be working more and then ill probably be eating more. OR SOMETHING ALONG THOSE LINES...
haha idont really care their reason.. all i care about is moving outt!!
but im thinking maybe not this sem? cuz this sem we have 2 units of law and its pretty busy...
i really wanna move to the city but i know i probably wont be able to afford it :(
somewhere like surry hills or like i dernnnoooooooooooo... just somewhere convenient!!!!
well im gonna go off now and google some apartments for rent just so i can get an idea of the market at the moment!!
HEHE EXCITING!!
so next time.. instead of bustling around like little housewives with nothing to live for but gossip you guys should just come up to me and tell me what you think of me.
i like it much better that way.
no need to be pussy. just be a man.
oops did i say be a man? sorryyy forgot you guys are still only boys.
hence why i only go for older boys now.
do i sound like a bitch?
oh really? haha ok then. :)
i LOVEEEEEEEE Katy Perry. she is sooo friggin awesome. have you heard her others songs on her album?
Self-inflicted and Thinking of You are AWESOME tracks.
today my parents told me that i should move out for 3 months!! ahhaha just to get a taste of what its like. ive said this before i know a few times but then my mum was the only one that was kinda supportive... when i told my dad last year mum said i can move out just for the experience he told me that if i wanted to move out i wouldnt be allowed back.
HARSH RIGHT?!
anywayyyy so yeah today during dinner there was some argument about the amount of dinner i was eating and so my dad was like something about moving out and then ill be working more and then ill probably be eating more. OR SOMETHING ALONG THOSE LINES...
haha idont really care their reason.. all i care about is moving outt!!
but im thinking maybe not this sem? cuz this sem we have 2 units of law and its pretty busy...
i really wanna move to the city but i know i probably wont be able to afford it :(
somewhere like surry hills or like i dernnnoooooooooooo... just somewhere convenient!!!!
well im gonna go off now and google some apartments for rent just so i can get an idea of the market at the moment!!
HEHE EXCITING!!
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
once again my head is playing tricks on me again
ahah
must stop listening to it
im in love with the new kelly clarkson song!
omgggggggg it is a voice of reason
not really hahaah
enjoying uni much much more this week so dont worry no one will see me in front of uts tmr hyperventilating sorry for the unsightly scene last week.
uts has become my home. i was there on monday morning before class. i was there today and i shall be going tmr for the whole day. im in love with the library and how utterly convenient it is.
and ive realised lots of very stylish people go to uts. so i guess its unsw thats just left with the ones who cant dress.. ie. the fobs.. omg that was mean. sorry unsw
i guess im also biased cuz my muzza works there at uts ahaha
my very very favourite lines
I know that I’ve got issues
But you’re pretty messed up too
Anyway, I found out I’m nothing without you
(so trueeeeee...)
Being with you is so dysfunctional
I really shouldn’t miss you, but I can’t let go
(right back at ya clarkson)
so this morning i was in a rush to catch the train.. and for some reason parking was just happening for me today! like i could not get my car in a very good spot. then i scooped out this stretch of curbside that had no cars parked there. and it was long enough for 2 cars to be parked easy. BUT because of my shocking parking this morning i basically parked right in the middle of the space and hence no other car could park there....
when i got to the car this arvo... someone stuck a note and told me it was impolite to take up the whole room when there is room for another car.
HAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
you must excuse a p-plater but... sorry mr anal but i bet you were just as shocking as me when you were on your Ps.
enough said
crim and civil is really intersting at the moment learning about all hte police powers and what they are entitled to do and what is a breach of their conduct in regrds to arresting, searching, entering and seizing.
ok
byebye sweets
ahah
must stop listening to it
im in love with the new kelly clarkson song!
omgggggggg it is a voice of reason
not really hahaah
enjoying uni much much more this week so dont worry no one will see me in front of uts tmr hyperventilating sorry for the unsightly scene last week.
uts has become my home. i was there on monday morning before class. i was there today and i shall be going tmr for the whole day. im in love with the library and how utterly convenient it is.
and ive realised lots of very stylish people go to uts. so i guess its unsw thats just left with the ones who cant dress.. ie. the fobs.. omg that was mean. sorry unsw
i guess im also biased cuz my muzza works there at uts ahaha
my very very favourite lines
I know that I’ve got issues
But you’re pretty messed up too
Anyway, I found out I’m nothing without you
(so trueeeeee...)
Being with you is so dysfunctional
I really shouldn’t miss you, but I can’t let go
(right back at ya clarkson)
so this morning i was in a rush to catch the train.. and for some reason parking was just happening for me today! like i could not get my car in a very good spot. then i scooped out this stretch of curbside that had no cars parked there. and it was long enough for 2 cars to be parked easy. BUT because of my shocking parking this morning i basically parked right in the middle of the space and hence no other car could park there....
when i got to the car this arvo... someone stuck a note and told me it was impolite to take up the whole room when there is room for another car.
HAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
you must excuse a p-plater but... sorry mr anal but i bet you were just as shocking as me when you were on your Ps.
enough said
crim and civil is really intersting at the moment learning about all hte police powers and what they are entitled to do and what is a breach of their conduct in regrds to arresting, searching, entering and seizing.
ok
byebye sweets
Monday, March 9, 2009
oops
haha
letting myself feel hurt again
must keep away from that area
MUST KEEP AWAY
haha
letting myself feel hurt again
must keep away from that area
MUST KEEP AWAY
Sunday, March 8, 2009
its raining.
i hate the rain.
i hate walking out just to chuck something in the red bin and having to run but then having to make sure i dont trip over the wires that are connecting the fairy lights on my house which my dad still hasnt bothered to take off since christmas last year.
i hate having done my washing today and putting it out on the line and while just sitting here trying to read my finance textbook i look over to my steps that lead into the backyard and see droplets on the deck.... then looking and realising that that whole half an hour i spent washing clothes will have to be redone again. then running, barefoot, into the backyard trying to save my precious washing and coming back with muddy feet. (feels like thailand all over again)
i was supposed to read the biography of Warren Buffet. im staring at the book now... im only a quarter through but i cant seem to take it anymore.. gawd help me
the only reason i liked today was cuz i didnt have to wash my car. score
haha it gets a bit worrying when you get excited that you dont have to wash your car. haha what's life come to aye?
anyway the mardi gras was very exciting yesterday apart from the sweating, squishy and highly exhausting turn out of people. i cannot believe they sell chairs now for 10 bux each so you can stand on them and watch the parade. business people i swear... know how to make an opportunity from everything. but people like us, who did NOT want to spend 10 bux on a chair.. how were we supposed to watch the show? luckily we pushed to the front.
i got hit on by a french lady. she wasnt very pretty.
next year i am sooooo volunteering for the parade!
i hate the rain.
i hate walking out just to chuck something in the red bin and having to run but then having to make sure i dont trip over the wires that are connecting the fairy lights on my house which my dad still hasnt bothered to take off since christmas last year.
i hate having done my washing today and putting it out on the line and while just sitting here trying to read my finance textbook i look over to my steps that lead into the backyard and see droplets on the deck.... then looking and realising that that whole half an hour i spent washing clothes will have to be redone again. then running, barefoot, into the backyard trying to save my precious washing and coming back with muddy feet. (feels like thailand all over again)
i was supposed to read the biography of Warren Buffet. im staring at the book now... im only a quarter through but i cant seem to take it anymore.. gawd help me
the only reason i liked today was cuz i didnt have to wash my car. score
haha it gets a bit worrying when you get excited that you dont have to wash your car. haha what's life come to aye?
anyway the mardi gras was very exciting yesterday apart from the sweating, squishy and highly exhausting turn out of people. i cannot believe they sell chairs now for 10 bux each so you can stand on them and watch the parade. business people i swear... know how to make an opportunity from everything. but people like us, who did NOT want to spend 10 bux on a chair.. how were we supposed to watch the show? luckily we pushed to the front.
i got hit on by a french lady. she wasnt very pretty.
next year i am sooooo volunteering for the parade!
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
do you think it matters how much other people think of you?
i'm sure all these girls and guys maybe say all this shit about not caring but inside they're probably one of the ones who care the most about how they are percieved in the eyes of others.
i for one care a fucking shitload of what people think about me.
not so much random people or people who dont know me well.
but when it comes to friends, comments where my intelligence is insulted and my decisions are made to sound stupid sends me up the wall.
do YOU not think that 19 y/o, soon to be 20, me can make my own decisions and take responsibilty for them? do you not think that maybe, JUST MAYBE, everything that you've told me has already played out 10 million times in my own head? hence making me think about it 10 million times?
im a smart girl. and im fucking proud of it. i work hard to get where i am. sure i have lapses of judgment sometimes but i end up back right back on track. im always going to be that nerdy, smart, smoking, anti-drug, anti-bird, loud, "confident" girl who will in this man's world climb up that corporate ladder and use my beastly hands to smash down that glass ceiling.
so dont tell me im gonna venture off that track because at this very moment that is the only thing in my life that i know for sure. sure life is volatile. boys come and go. friends come and go. jobs come and go. but this is. not this.
when someone tells you that they care for you i try my hardest to believe it. but when their actions and words come out harsh or exaggerated when they're giving out advice then sometimes the "caring" bit shoots past me.
you care for me? show me
so maybe i think too much and get stressed too much. and maybe im just a little insecure about myself. but i love the way i am. you better love the fact that i dont burden you with all this bullshit that i write here.
im sorry but i must jet. i have still around 200 pages of law notes to read :)
yay for being a law student.
actually... that wasnt sarcasm. i love being a law student
minus the readings
love
i'm sure all these girls and guys maybe say all this shit about not caring but inside they're probably one of the ones who care the most about how they are percieved in the eyes of others.
i for one care a fucking shitload of what people think about me.
not so much random people or people who dont know me well.
but when it comes to friends, comments where my intelligence is insulted and my decisions are made to sound stupid sends me up the wall.
do YOU not think that 19 y/o, soon to be 20, me can make my own decisions and take responsibilty for them? do you not think that maybe, JUST MAYBE, everything that you've told me has already played out 10 million times in my own head? hence making me think about it 10 million times?
im a smart girl. and im fucking proud of it. i work hard to get where i am. sure i have lapses of judgment sometimes but i end up back right back on track. im always going to be that nerdy, smart, smoking, anti-drug, anti-bird, loud, "confident" girl who will in this man's world climb up that corporate ladder and use my beastly hands to smash down that glass ceiling.
so dont tell me im gonna venture off that track because at this very moment that is the only thing in my life that i know for sure. sure life is volatile. boys come and go. friends come and go. jobs come and go. but this is. not this.
when someone tells you that they care for you i try my hardest to believe it. but when their actions and words come out harsh or exaggerated when they're giving out advice then sometimes the "caring" bit shoots past me.
you care for me? show me
so maybe i think too much and get stressed too much. and maybe im just a little insecure about myself. but i love the way i am. you better love the fact that i dont burden you with all this bullshit that i write here.
im sorry but i must jet. i have still around 200 pages of law notes to read :)
yay for being a law student.
actually... that wasnt sarcasm. i love being a law student
minus the readings
love