scorpions
scorpions paralyse their prey first by stinging them and then bringing them in
and theres that myth
that when scorpions are surrounded by fire.. ie. about to get burnt.. they sting themselves to death

so which one are you?
are you that seductress that can reel people in and somehow, in some way, poison their mind to do your bidding? do you possess that charm that can naturally attract people towards you, innocent, unsuspecting people, who become blinded and when they least expect it you stab them so hard in the back that you basically suck out their soul?

or are you the one that always gets into trouble. you're always there at the wrong time, meeting the wrong people, making the wrong choices and ending up in the worst possible situations. but instead of being able to escape from those situations like any other animal you just add oil and you heat things up more. you dig yourself into a bigger hole, one that becomes so deep that it becomes virtually impossible to climb, crawl, scamper your way out of. but thats not the point.. the point is that even if you had a chance to escape you would be scared so shitless you wouldnt be able to do it. you'll take that easy way out.. and in this case, stinging yourself to death...

i dont want to be the second one. selfish as it sounds if i had a choice i would pick to be the first one. we're not perfect.. and im not gonna be sitting around telling everyone.. hey look at me im the nicest, most selfless person ever. because, fuck that, im not. and neither are you.

this year
my horoscope predicts ill be less jealous, less intense, less likely to stalk my love interest and be able to let go easier when its over.
employments gonna be a rollercoaster
and im gonna be struggling for cash
bleak outlook or what?
the year has barely started and my horoscope is telling me that firstly... im gonna have a relationship which will end but HEY ITS ALL GOOD ill get over it easy
im probably gonna be stuck at the immigration law place
and all those holidays ive been planning to go on plus saving to go on exchange if i can get it will be a struggle

but who believes in those things anyway aye?