so you know my daily runnings?
wellll let you in on a secret.
they arent daily...
AHHAAHAH
AS IF THAT WAS A SHOCK HORROR TO ANYONE!? :P

ok ok
so instead they're 2-day runnings which is ok because on the days i dont run i dont leave the ab king pro. i really dont know if it works or not.. BUT BUT BUT it makes you feel good about your self when you do 100.

sometimes you wanna escape it all. every little problem in your life and sometimes you think... ive been good all these years. ive done what ive been told. i havnet gotten pregnant, not every caught for drugs, not cheated in a test, not broken curfew, not been drunk off my titties (at least not in their faces).
so you say.
hey mate. ive dont all youve asked me for.
why isnt that enough?
why are there still more rules that i need to follow? why do you not say to yourself 'shes done well lets get off her back..' but instead only pick up on the bad, rude, selfish things that ive done.

this is the reason why.
because its never enough.
youve made it this far. but in their minds youve still got miles to travel.
until you reach that final destination in their minds nothing you ever do will be good enough.
who gives a shit if that final destination is still 10 million miles away?
you've given them a tester. a sample. and it just means they crave more.

but then you say why the hell did i start being a good kid in the first place? why the hell did i study. and do well at school and try to make them happy when obviously they will never be happy?

because you wanna build a life for yourself where you will not be sweating it out behind the counter of woolies or dealing of customers who thinks that they found a piece of hair in their burger.
and because, even though it hurts me to say this.. sooner or later what makes them happy will make you happy.

you think your parents arent happy? take a look at mine. sometimes i think i was born into the wrong family.
but you play the hands you're dealt with right?
sometimes i think my parents think that the hospital gave them a wrong baby.
but they play the hands that they're dealt too.
and cards... theres always luck involved right?

we could all use some of that luck.
RIGHT ABOUT NOW



so i think im moving but im actually standing still.
you think youve stopped thinking about it until the little notch at the back of your head turns on and things start to run through your head and you laugh it off thinking that you're past all that
but you're not.
boys are dickheads.
_ _ _ _heads.
so much better without their dicks though.