im just a tad over my head here.
im expectign something thats not tangible and sometimes im so esctatic at the thought and sometimes im runnin scared out of my wits.
i have to stop comparing myself to before cuz theres no point. ive got to live for the now right? live for whats going for me in my life at this very second of this very day of this very month of this very year.
and if hell breaks lose. i wouldve become a better person out of it yes?



well thats what they tell me.
do i really believe it when im here writing it. sitting in this bubble of my world, where yes, i dont like being prodded at. i dont like being spun around and left feeling sick outta my stomach from the dizziness you give me. i dont like being stared at and then flung aside out of mere fun on your behalf.
so while i sit here, trying to concerntrate, trying to keep my mind and heart from sinking too deeply into yours, trying to keep them locked up in my bubble. snatching at them with all my life while they try to escape.. im failing miserably.

and yes i know my layout has disappeared.
what can i say?



WHATEVER