ive had an amazing couple of days.
just going out with girlfriends makes all the trivial things in life disappear.
this whole mid-sems thing had me way over stressed and tired, underfed, sad, feeling stupid and just being miserable all the time.
then come friday after my micro i had a terrific night with yisha and lisa who i can always count on and always depend upon. being with them makes me miss north sydney girls and makes me sad about those two years ive missed with them. two years where we all did move on a bit.. moving onto new people and new mindsets and new goals in life. moving on which i thought would be so easy to let go but then realise, to my surprise, that its not and it is one of the hardest things to do.
saturday night was a night out with the ruse girls. nostalgic once again. some of them i hadnt seen since formal last year. just little things which makes you miss high school. missing the stability of the people who you know are your friends and who you know you can depend on. people who love you unconditionally. no matter what.
that no matter what part is hard for people to comprehend though. because its hard to do. its hard to open your heart so large and to accept someone for who they are...for every little aspect of who they are.. to one single mole on their body to one horrifying decision they make in their lives. we're bad at accepting.. each and every one of us. i just wish people would try harder. come uni ive become more accepting... at least i think so. i dont judge people as much on superficial levels but im way way way way way far from what i think acceptance should be.
i have finished one tree hill season 3. its made me miss high school. its made me miss a "best friend" and its made me miss liking someone so much that your heart hurts. its made me miss the small things that makes life so fun.
even though songs must end.. you have to live through the music :)
so being all sentimental really isnt my thing. haha. im just the one who smiles heaps and talks really loudly and who trips over on the street and who everyone likes picking on. HAHA. fair enough. i like my job.