parents can be mean sometimes.
not mean as in "they wont let me go out"
but actually hurtful.
i dont know about yours but mine are.
so today. my cousin cmes home. and we're talking and my mum goes "you're dressed prettily today" to my cousin. then she turns to me and says "see pecy you cna coordinate clothes so that you dont always have to have your boobs hanging out" or somewhere along those lines
well what am i supposed to think when my mum says taht?
maybe that im a slut.
and no it does not make me happy when i get called a slut. especially by my own mother.
so she says that im trying to defend myself and she just walks away. so im like mum come back i havent finished talking.. so i like go to her study and im like "its not fair... ive got two dresses that are a bit showy... its nothing compared to some girls at uni... my boobs arent even hanging out...." blahblahblah. and im supposed to go cut the bushes for her and it ws getting dark... but i was like yeah ill still do it... and shes like no its too dark you'll step on rose bushes.. but im like no i can still do it its ok i dont think its too dark i dont know what the problem is. and then both my parents start yelling at me saying how im just trying to create more chaos.
all i wanted to do was cut the bushes like ihad promised....i wasnt even scared that it was kinda darkish...
so now... i am.... "someones whose changed", my mum can no longer cll me a "good kid" to our family friends. im a smart alek. im a person who always talks back.
and then in the end she says i think you should go live by yourself for a while and just see what its like when and then come home and see how good you have it.
this may all seem trivial to everyone.. but to me its a big deal.
i am not a slut. and the way my mum used this chinese saying something about "being in a state of mind that you always wanna only cover half of yourbody" (i kinda literally translated it). but that made me think that she was saying that im some mental girl who has to dress like a slut. and who always does
doesnt sound like that to you?

when i get in trouble at home unless its blatant that i did do the wrong thing. i like to try to defend myself. is that not right?
my parents curfew is 12. and even though i live in cherrybrook bloody an hour away from the city they dont care. they say tough luck you wanted to live here for ruse. and so im like but as i get older i can go out later right? but no i cant. as long as im living under this roof my curfew will always be 12. so if im living with my parents until im 25 my curfew will always be 12. i tried to defend myslef and tried to show it from my perspective. im just being a smart alek again... im just talking back.
but wouldnt you?

when i have fights with my parents i hate crying. i take pride in my pride. if that makes sense. i hate to look vulnerable infront of people. and so i never cry. even if i have someone screaming infront of my face. i wont cry and hold back tears.

so right now im not in the happiest mood. dont come running to me about things that dont interest me. i really couldnt give a fuck.
i have an assignment worth 30% due and a mid term. so kindly piss off.
great thanks :)